Chemo #4 (Oct 25-Nov 7)
My mother in law was in town from Indiana and went to my chemo day with me. Everything went as planned. My neutrophils did tank again so I went back the next day for a shot of Neulasta. Such a pain, but I needed it! I was lucky not to have any bone pain this time around and I stayed on Claritin the whole time.
I am always more tired the first few days after chemo because of the Zofran (for nausea). They recommend I take it through Sunday night. I know it’s causing the drowsiness because as soon as they give it, the day of chemo, within about 15 minutes I am tired. I am half tempted to half the dosage for round #5 and see if I get nauseated. It also causes the constipation (which clears up after it’s out of my system). We will see if I am brave enough. HA! Otherwise I felt pretty good. I took walks and exercised.
When time got closer and closer to my PET scan my emotions started to flow. Waiting for results is torture and I dreaded it. I was already given a cancer diagnosis, surely I can get through a PET Scan, right? The devil plays into your weak moments and sometimes gets in. I planted my face into the Lord’s word during these times! #nottodaySatan I had faith God would get me well, but the thought of getting in that PET scan machine again had my nerves going crazy for a couple of days. The machine itself doesn’t bother me as much as the results the machine produces.
If you missed my results you can read here: PET Scan
When the day before chemo rolls around I DREAD chemo. I wanna vomit thinking about it as I type this. I don’t think I can do it. I don’t think fighting cancer is my reality. I feel normal the days before chemo. I can’t explain it. I feel like I will have to be dragged into the chair and strapped down. However, somehow I get up early, I get dressed and we make the (often long) drive downtown. I prepare mentally to sit for hours as the medications and chemotherapy is put into my port. After the Zofran and other pre meds go in, chemo day is pretty much a blur. I shouldn’t be trusted to make any important decisions that’s for sure. I’m buzzed or high, or who knows what to call it!
Before chemo I give blood, wait for the results and speak to my doctor and nurses before getting the ok to head to my chair. That part is a JOY (it can be found anywhere, my friends!) as they are all positive and in a good mood. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME! That helps. I make the BEST of a crappy reality and enjoy my time with them. Then I head downstairs for chemo and, by the grace of God, I get through it!
Then, once home all the proactive and preventative care begins. Again.
Mouth rinsing 4 times a day. Drinking plenty of fluids (even though I don’t want to). Double flushing the toilet for 48 hours after chemo (yes, it’s that toxic), taking my temperature 2-3 times a day, oil pulling and so on. Exercising despite feeling blah those early days has been a BIG positive for me. Not only does it keep me sane, it helps my energy. LISTEN UP: you need to be active EVERY SINGLE DAY. Don’t make excuses. I can guarantee chemo wouldn’t be going like it is for me if I didn’t start where I did, mentally, emotionally and physically.
Halloween happened during the 2 weeks of chemo #4. We had a great time! My Nurse Navigator, Lisa, loaned me my costume. She rocks! I made the office some of my No-Bake Energy Balls and they were a hit: RECIPE
A cancer diagnosis teaches you a lot about yourself and others. Some good and some, well, let’s just say not so good. I am blessed with some amazing people in my life, near and far. I am grateful for the friendships I have formed over the past 4 years of living in South Carolina because I need them. God puts people in your life for a reason and you don’t always realize why until much time has passed.
I am grateful for my friend, Rick, that works as head honcho of our neighborhood maintenance and landscaping. He is a man with a very caring heart. He has no children of his own and has adopted me. Boy, he didn’t know what he was getting into! HA! He took time out of his day to take my mother in law and myself for a drive in the side-by-side around our neighborhood. I thought it would be fun and he was on board. This is just one of many things he does for me. It was a gorgeous Fall day and it brightened our day!
Many of you know I have been very active in our neighborhood and schools since moving here. Little did I know all these years of volunteering my time would land me with great people to support me when I need it most.
I am grateful for my friend, Karen, who is head honcho (apparently I like saying this) of the neighborhood office. She is a Breast Cancer survivor. As soon as she heard my news I had a copy of Jesus Calling in my mailbox. It has been a lifesaver for me. She has went above and beyond for me and deserve a shout out.
He died for us so that, whether we are wake or asleep, we may live together with him. Therefore ENCOURAGE one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing. 1 Thessalonians 5:10-10
This image looks like a carefree picture of me, but actually I’m doped up on premeds and trying to make the best of being stuck in a small confined area for hours!
Walk in obedience to all that the Lord your God has commanded you, so that you may live and prosper and prolong your days in the land that you will possess. Deuteronomy 5:33
Thanks to my nephew, Ian, for making my sign for me.
I leave you with this: You are stronger than you think. You have the power to change your life for the better. You can become a healthier version of you. You have the power. Go to the doctor visits and get the check ups! Don’t let fear keep you from this. You are worthy of it. Make it happen! Find your determination.
Therefore, I do not run like someone running aimlessly; I do not fight like a boxer beating the air. No, I strike a blow to my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize. 1 Corinthians 9:26-27
Thank you Lord for my prize of a cancer free scan. Continue to guide me, strengthen me, and cure me competely. Amen.